When life gives you lemons, make lemonade.

 

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I recently made a realization about some issues that have been plaguing me my whole life. I realized that I have been forced to compete for every last little thing that I have including attention. Now in the perfect world a child would never have to compete for love and attention, but this is not a perfect world. These issues have been causing me major problems my whole life, and finally at 45 years old, I have been able to identify them. Over this last week, I stayed aware of this competitive issue, and I found that now that I am aware of it, it is no longer affecting me anymore. Now every-time the competition for attention comes up, I now react with I’m not going to play that game instead of getting angry, like I use to. this realization has been so liberating, and I have been, so much happier at the same time. Before this realization, I didn’t think that happiness in my life would ever be possible, but thankfully, I was wrong!

I got this dress in 2006 in hopes that one day it would fit, and that day finally came, 11 years later. This dress is a size 6, I don’t ever remember wearing a size 6, but when my father passed away I found a pair of jeans that I wore in 6th grade they were a size 6. Now lets just say that 6th grade was at least 30 years ago, but I made it! that’s all that matters. Oh, but I’m not done yet. I’m down weight wise to 165, and the goal is around 135-140. I’m not sure what size that will be, but I look forward to finding out.

The latest in my weight loss!

I got this dress in 2006 in hopes that one day it would fit, and that day finally came, 11 years later.

The latest in my weight loss!

I got this dress in 2006 in hopes that one day it would fit, and that day finally came, 11 years later. This dress is a size 6, I don’t ever remember wearing a size 6, but when my father passed away I found a pair of jeans that I wore in 6th grade they were a size 6. Now lets just say that 6th grade was at least 30 years ago, but I made it! that’s all that matters. Oh, but I’m not done yet. I’m down weight wise to 165, and the goal is around 135-140. I’m not sure what size that will be, but I look forward to finding out.